The State of Unbeing

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Part 1

O! The sky is studded during the day,
And, at night, a fiery red ball glows,
And I draw energy for my vain assay,
The passing of beings- and the wind blows.

The mist in the air blinds me, my sight.
A life constructed on dreams and illusions,
The fire subsides and there’s the fading of light,
Yet, I see my actions’ divisions.

Part 2

I wake up from my stupor,
And who should wake me up,
But the two passing beings,
Their presence overwhelming,
Their presence daunting,
Their presence intimidating,
And a weird look- a queer look.
They put forth three questions,
And I answer them; and for each
The answer is expected.
I feel an unbearable lightness
Of being.
The past flows in, like a fog,
Where water meets land.
Each time I look at the jigsaw,
Another piece is lost.
I scratch at the surface,
And the ground breaks away,
And here I am, stuck in my well,
All around me walls, and nowhere to go.
The light seeps in, through the cracks,
I stare at the mosaic, which it makes on the floor.
The walls start to close in,
And I’m stuck in this hole.
I can’t help but question: Is this my fate?
With no arms to climb out,
It feels terrible, to be stuck
In the shadows of doubt.

3 responses on “The State of Unbeing

  1. Qanit – Enjoying your poetry, you have a fluidity with mixing anachronisms with modern language. We at Synchronized Chaos International Magazine invite you to submit poetry our way at synchchaos@gmail.com – we accept poetry and writing from around the world and develop our monthly themes based on what we have received.

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    • Thank you for your kind comments. I’d be glad to write a review the work, as it gives me an opportunity to read emerging forms of poetry.

      I shall be submitting an entry to your magazine soon.

      Thanks once again.

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